I've just lost all motivation to continue posting about what happened in nz actually. I know I've got it all written down in my diary somewhere so I won't forget.

to all those expecting me to post about hillary challenge, I'm sorry I won't be able to finish what I've started. go read francis' blog if you're that interested. link on left column(:

on another note, I'm contemplating moving my blog. perhaps to somewhere where I can lock my posts and all. so many things I want to post but obviously can't coz I cannot seem to password protect my posts. ugh.

can't believe j1 is making me more emo than ever before. I don't know why- okay maybe I do know. somehow the feeling of crappiness really isn't leaving, no matter what I'm trying to do.

was talking to tiffy just now. came to the same conclusion.

why is it that when people say "don't worry, you can count on me. i'll be here for you(:", they hardly ever mean it in the end? I guess it's those that do eventually stick around and check up on you that really count. even if they're not in the same class as you, and hardly see each other around. haha gosh, am I even still making sense?

those false promises of "I'll be there for you"- are they just a bunch of words? I think so now.

when you need it the most, who are those still left?